the spillover

I’m not sure what to make of life right now. I’m having such a hard time focusing on the way I ought to be living. The way I ought to be loving others. I’ve got this selfish part of me that holds on to some unknown distaste for certain people and it’s something I’m actively trying to push past on a daily basis. God is so big and so beyond words. I know He is using me right now in ways I’m not even aware but I have to remind myself to put myself aside. To not be Emma. To be a light unto the world. To speak the words He puts into my heart. To love like I have been loved. I’m growing. Slowly but surely the Emma that used to exist is fading away to make room for an Emma that influences others not because I am anything worthwhile but because my God is brilliant enough to shine through my filth. An Emma that lets the grace and mercy of God shine on others without ever having to try.