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this morning was full of revelations and confirmations. God has been SO present in my life. i know everyone goes through their waiting period and i won’t lie i’m a little nervous about that haha but right now is SO not that moment. my world is rocked by Him on an hourly basis. it was kind of incredible how much He spoke today in the last philosophy of ministry class at water of life. it was like every time we would reach a new bullet point in the notebook He would whisper in my ear the name of someone. zach. kyle. melissa. sabrina. victoria. it was amazing. from mentoring others to being mentored. from personality flaws to gifts i was blessed with. i’m beyond blown away. i received so much encouragement both from Him speaking directly to me and also from the eye contact and words spoken to me. i’m so ready for this journey, so excited for the challenges to come along with the opportunities to advance His kingdom.

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i love having the sex talk at church. haha is that weird? yeah it is… haha i won’t even lie. i love the biblical approach, i love the way the language of a service is altered to appeal to the masses, i love how universal the topic is, i love the way we have ALL failed at it. doesn’t matter if you’ve had sex, you’ve thought about sex, whatever, we are all in this together, no one is perfect. i think that’s what i like about it. i feel like sex is the one topic that we can all relate to, some more than others but all of us have dealt with something to do with sex. don’t get me wrong, we can all learn from sermons about drug use or finances or marriage or whatever but i LOVE that as a society we are drawn to sex and tend to pay more attention when someone starts talking about it. our pastor talked about sex last night, the way he joked about it, the way he wrapped his message around it, it was amazing because i KNEW that everyone in the building was listening. more so than when he talks about any other issue. through other messages i can see people dozing, texting, or playing games. not last night. that was cool. i like that.

my favorite quote of the night?

“guys, you can go your whole life without it. girls, when you’re married? give it up.” 

hahahahhahahha.

i’m kind of interested, anyone know any good books on Christian apologetics?

i love how supportive my friends and family are. both my Christian friends as well as my non-Christian friends. i posted today a ‘what i’m thankful for today’ type post as inspired by one of the mentors at my church. my old assistant band directors’ boyfriend/fiance/husband/orsomething… lol commented on it. he is very anti religion and posted this comment:

“Emma, you are special not because any entity made you special. You are special because you choose to be that way and have applied yourself selflessly. You are a cut above your peers and there is no thanking to anyone but yourself. Keep up your work ethic and life will be a great thing for you.”

it was so inspiring to be encouraged by someone regardless of my religious affiliation. i won’t take credit for the positive influence i have on others, that’s ALL God, but i love that even if he doesn’t believe it’s God moving in me i’ve been able to be a light in his life. 

being a light. that’s all i can ever hope to be. that’s what i strive for. it’s so easy to be cooped up in ‘the church’ and focus on being a light to other Christians but i want more than that. i want to be a light to everyone. even if others don’t realize that it’s God shining through me i want to shine into their lives in a positive manner.

i don’t know if this made sense… haha but yeah i’m inspired. glory to God. so blessed to be used by Him for His kingdom.

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